Signs, signs, signs…. That is what life is right… a network of signs that if read correctly you can “rule the world”. Fail to read the signs of life correctly, and you may end up homeless, jobless, and loveless, wondering what went wrong. Let’s say you are a mail clerk at an office building. That is not exactly a job of desire for most people, right. But as you go through the process of picking up the mail at each department of the company you work for, you start hearing things, noticing certain people’s discontent for their job, talking to people & figuring things out, etc. Then you hear that same company is looking for someone to step up as the “morale booster” for the company, someone who is in touch with the heartbeat of the company, and someone who knows what employees are unhappy with in their job and how to fix that problem so as to get the best productivity from each employee. If you played your cards right & jumped on this opportunity, you could move right on up to a cushy office job that provides more pay with less effort. Pretty much, I am finding that getting ahead & succeeding in life involves reading between the lines, and taking advantage of a situation when you have an edge. So what the fuck could I be rambling on about? Well it is not involving taking over a corporate board room. No I am all about personal space, and my home life. I work because I have to, because I have a family that needs to be supported & I am the sole provider. If it were up to me, I would live in a cave & eat fresh caught fish and self grown vegetables to survive. Well maybe not that extreme, but much meager than I have now would do me just fine. But as it is, I have a wife & kids who all want the world & are disappointed when financial burdens stand in their way. Take my youngest son… it seems he wants a new video game every week. Even though he has lowered his expectations to old outdated X-Box games, none the less he wants a new one seemingly daily. My oldest son wants a new guitar & says he wants lessons so as to be the next “Daughtry.” Which in theory, I am 100% supportive of. But history has shown that he likes to reap the benefits, without putting in the effort, so I foresee many hours of lessons paid for while very few hours of practice ever occur. And then there is my wife… we interact daily, I try as best I can to let her know how crazy in Love with her I am, and she usually parrots back whatever I say to her in one form or the other. I support her college endeavers, as well as her career pursuits one hundred percent. And she acts as though she accepts my support, and we are moving ahead together as a team. But if I really step back & read between the lines, I get a different story. Let’s look at something simple like her facebook picture. Sure she lists herself married to me on her info page, but the picture she posts is her & our two sons. A great picture in itself, but when used to identify someone, screams single mother of two… Next we go to the posts on her blog, a blog I have acknowledged many times here, yet I get no credit from her, and she still has yet to list herself as a follower. (You read between those lines). Most if not all her posts talk about things that we experience together, or topics that she & I talked about privately, yet she discusses them as if she were alone. When I “read between the lines,” I get that if she doesn’t already feel single, she wants to portray herself that way, for whatever reason. All of this saddens me, and leaves me thinking it is time to “face the music.” I have tried to include you all in the journey that I have taken in trying to win back the love of my life, and with the failure of my efforts, I hope you all follow as we move on from her. The New Year is a coming… what changes it shall bring are yet to unfold. But good or bad, I will share my experience with you all. If for no other reason, so as to trick myself into believing I am not alone….
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