Perspective

It is Monday October 18^th, and I am settled back into cubicle # 53090 here at my place of work in Clearwater Fl. I have only been here for an hour, yet I have already spoken with several not so nice doctors’ offices and one lovely lady who woke up to her own personal nightmare yesterday morning. She said her significant other had suddenly passed away in their sleep, and it wasn’t until she brought his coffee that she realized it. The sadness & heartache was evident in her voice, and it was hard to be clinical & professional while answering her own medical questions while all the while just wanting to cry along with her. Trying to tell someone whose nerves are so shot, that the thought of eating makes her vomit, is difficult, but due to her medical condition, failing to eat a balanced meal can send her to the hospital in a coma. So during the breaks in her sadness, I kept trying to reinforce how important it is she takes care of herself. Reminding her of those who care about her & need her presence in their lives. I felt a small bit of guilt at first, because personally I had a great morning with The Mrs. Although too short in time, I managed to cuddle next to her for 10 minutes this morning with her head next to mine, hand in hand I was able to silently hold the woman I love most on this planet. And although I did appreciate that 10 minutes, and even waited until just the right time to move in for the cuddle, so as not to interrupt her sleep, I could not fully be grateful for that short time until I took that call. Life is so short, and too much time is taken up with nonsense. If I could do anything to give that lady on the other end of the line some peace, it would be done. But for my part, reminding her that she needs to do what’s best for her, and that taking care of herself is what her late partner would want most for her is all I can do. But to the rest of us, today I want to suggest we all hug the ones we love (even if they are fighting over the X-box), forgive the little things they are doing to drive you nuts (someday you will miss those annoyances), and don’t wait until tomorrow to let them know how much they mean to you(it goes without saying- tomorrow is not guaranteed to any of us)!

Erwin, you are my lighthouse in the storm of lfe!